Despite all sorts of fears and superetitions re: defending my dissertation, I bought an outfit today…the Calvin Kelin skirt and blazer I’ve wanted for years and could never justify, and a dress that I just really liked and would be good for my other job.

I am so afraid of what happened last November happening again. I do need to say I didn’t FAIL my defense. I just got tripped up in ugly politics that are hard to explain. But hopefully I’ll be allowed to finish this time. I need it done.